oh yeyuuuh (Taken with Instagram)
Taken with Instagram
Ok so just currently drooling over the new iPhone, in love (Taken with Instagram)
New glasses #goingblind (Taken with Instagram)
yummy (Taken with Instagram)
Becoming so close to someone in such a short space of time, loveeee this girl (Taken with Instagram)
& then there’s you.. I knew I would end up feeling like this from the beginning. Dell actually, no. To begin with I never though this would happen, I never thought we’d get so close.. Even though I wanted to so badly, I was immediately attracted to you but I felt you were too good for me so I never thought anything would happen. But slowly it did, slowly we began to get closer but still thought nothing of it. Then that night you first kissed me i felt it, i felt that connection between us. The next night as amazing but i was scared hat I’d become attached and want more, but strangely didn’t but wanted you, your touch. I wanted to see your face because it made me smile and i could see you smiling back, that you felt it too.. but that’s what is confusing me to this day, i don’t want you as anything more than a friend but i find myself drawn to you like a drug and this feeling is beginning to takeover as much as it can. Every memory has some link to my day to day life and i can’t seem to stop it, but then i don’t know if i even want to.
Why is it so painful to miss people that you feel so much appreciation and love for? So much that my heart and mind ache to see the familiar faces and hear the familiar voices just one more time? Being in that place, that new environment without any known faces gave me time to grow and realise that this was what I needed, for me not anyone else. For the first time I didn’t have to worry about how I felt and how I came across because I had no one to affect, no one who knew anybody related to my feelings of self hate. I didn’t feel guilty for being happy and that was one of the alien but best feelings I have had in a long time. That experience alone would of stuck with me for life but then I met you lot. I cannot begin to describe the love I have in my heart for you and how greatful I am to you all for simply being genuine and kind loving people. For another first time I didn’t feel uneasy in anybodys presence and felt could completely be myself, you guys are all amazing and it hurts o know it will either be a long time till i will see you all again or that may never see any of you again..
Going through 36 gigs of photos from last weekend’s cookbook cover photoshoot.